Fat and Broke- Essentially that's Me Right Now

I should be having a really bad day today and in fact, I almost let these external factors (being fat and broke today) really get to me and have a mini-pity feast at my desk.

But instead, I'm in a decent mood. I'm not sure how this is possible.

I felt a little shaky midday but I think it was because I hadn't drunk enough caffeine.

I'm fat because some how, despite not really altering my eating habits and actually going to the gym this year more than I ever have in my LIFE, I don't fit into one pair of jeans and several dresses. My other jeans have holes in them. Brand new holes that may have to do with my weight gain. Aweseome. Not. Beautiful dresses. My boobs especially don't fit in them any more. For most women, that may be a godsend but seeing as my top half is larger than the rest of me- it SUCKS.

Also, I paid for eyeglasses (much needed but extremely expensive), a plane ticket to go home for the holidays, Britney Spears concert tickets, and some other things that essentially have me BROKE. Seriously, I have under $40 in my bank account and I don't get paid until Midnight on Monday. This too, SUCKS.

I'm not quite sure how I'll make it through this weekend because my credit cards are pretty much maxed out as well. Seriously, I think I may have $40 available on each card. How pathetic is this?

I am tempted to just go into a spiral but for whatever reason, I'm not freaking out. I feel like I should be but I'm not.

I am so weird.